Saturday, 21 June 2014

“All is as if the world did cease to exist. The city's monuments go unseen, its past unheard, and its culture slowly fading in the dismal sea.” -Nathan Reese Maher

I can not explain my fascination with abandoned buildings, 
They make me imagine stories that once took place there. 
Stories of far off times, 
Interesting people with secrets no one will know.
Furniture that probably witnessed unspeakable action, 
If only the walls could talk. 

Would they spill the secrets hidden behind the peeling wallpaper, 
or guard them with heavy hearts.


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Imagine the secrets a movie theater holds. The nervous sweat of a new couple on their first date, and the smell of long stale popcorn. The hollow screams from horror fans, terrified that the creature will devour them. 

Imagine the stories it once contained. A wife scared to tell her husband of a miscarriage, the husband hoping she never knows he poisoned her. A couple having a date night. She is afraid of his brother and hes hoping she will go home with him, just for her brother to murder them both in their sleep. 

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An empty room with everything intact is a thing of beauty. Was the person rushed out by a nuclear attack or forced to leave when she learned that her ex-husband put a mob hit on her. 

The bed, now covered in moss, what memories were made? Late nights staying up talking? Last goodbyes made? 



When a room is left, furniture and all it makes me happy. The memories and all of the moments of pure joy or hatred swirl through even the image itself.

How many books were read in the fading light of a summer sunset after a long day spent outdoors. How many hearts were broken and looking for a spot to mourn, left their tear stain on the window ledges until they were soaked. How many children's first memories involved these windows, which were once clear and pristine. 



The doors lead into a dark history. a murderer? An insane doctor hell bent on revenge? Human testing?

Can you imagine the screams that once filled these halls, from botched surgeries and mistakes no one wanted. The wheels of old rusted wheelchairs leaving the ghostly sound of their rotted rubber tires. The sounds of the screaming kids scared when the doctor pulled out a needle. The needle presses into the flesh, leaving the kid vulnerable and scared. 







I hope I didn't creep too many people out. If you have any more creepy abandoned places feel free to contact me on:
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Toodles xoxo
Jess



P.S Double book review to come soon :) 

Tuesday, 3 June 2014

“I'd trade all my tomorrows for one single yesterday.” - Kris Kristofferson





Nostalgia.

When you see or hear something that reminds you of days past.

A song.
A picture.
A toy.
Anything.

It brings back a small piece of a time gone and makes the feelings rush back.
Whether they are good
or bad.
They are there.

Realization hits me like a ton of bricks. I cannot believe it has been 5 years since we lost her. 
The feeling of being in her presence, being able to see her shining smile and bright eyes,
it is truly something I miss dearly. 

I miss the way she would cheat at Go-Fish, sneaking a peek at your cards when she claims to see a bird.
I miss the way she danced in her wheelchair, moving her arms like a fool but still managing to make us laugh.
I miss the phone calls that were a joy to have, talking about random things while Papa was sound asleep snoring in the background. 

Most of all I miss her voice calling me sweetie, or calling her daughters by the wrong names.
I miss her little bits of sudden laughter out of nowhere. 
I miss her stories. 

She was the most amazing woman I ever had the chance to know. 

I miss you Gramma<3 





As many know, its been a rough time without her and we all miss her dearly. But as i know and as do many members of my family she is always with us.  

Toodles xoxo

Jess <3